Sometimes it is hard for me to focus on praise when I am going through a situation that tries to call for all of my attention. What I must do at times like these is refocus and turn my face to the one who is able to deal with every challenge in my life. God is truly the author and finisher of my faith. I must keep close in mind and heart that I can’t win the battle unless I get involved the Lord who alone is able to deliver me from me and things going on around me.

There are times I find it extremely hard to focus on praise when I struggle with my sin, and my mind that tells me sometime to go back. Like going back is going to solve any problem. These things that I hear in my mind that try to make be believe that if I drink again, or get high again, are lies from the devil to get me off track. Distractions, mental distractions to my purpose and Gods plan for my life.

This is when I know I need to push and press past my thoughts, past my anxiety, push past my fear, and weary heart and praise God anyway. God already knows that we will experience all types of emotions. That’s why we are to stay close to God and His word that will encourage, correct, and help to discipline our thoughts and emotions. I use to run away from the things of God because I just didn’t think that I wasn’t good enough. And guess what? I’m not! It is only through Gods grace and mercy and the blood of Jesus that I am “MADE” to be the righteousness of God in Christ Jesus.

I find myself daily having to repent to the Father for being to emotional, distrusting at times, being afraid, being angry, anxious, and resentful. These things creep up in the best of us sometimes. I don’t know about those who have been saved all there lives, but as for me the one who struggles mentally to walk as God says and fails more than I would like to admit. I have made up in my mind as you should too, to continue to move and press forward, God’s word promises that he would never leave nor forsake us, that he is faithful and just to forgive when we repent and cleanse us, He promises to perfect those things concerning us, as well as finish what he has already began in us, which is a good work.

I want to encourage you to stay focused, and when you lose focus to redirect back to God and remember that He loves you and only wants what is best for you. He knows all about you, and know what you go through day in and day out.





Next Level Press

Lord have mercy! Moving to the next level can be uncomfortable. It’s crazy right! Like always in a place of being uncomfortable! Just when you think that there will be a long place of rest, and sometimes there will be, but for me right now I am going from one place of press right into another. God, I believe in this season is calling me to a place of the pressing place. Pressing through the spirit in prayer. Now is not the time to loose heart due to what is going on in the economy, the White House, and the nation’s disaster. As men and women of God it is time to take a stand and walk in the authority and dominion that God has placed in every saint. The church has been passive in the area of speaking up and out against things that are contrary to the word and will of God. We are beginning to accept anything and calling it the Gospel.

This ought not be! Peter, Paul and the other Apostles spoke boldly concerning the things of God! They spoke the Gospel, the birth, his walk, his ministry, his death, his resurrection, and Him seated at the right hand of the Father. They told of the genealogy of Adam and Eve, they spoke of how Jesus came to tear down the wall of partition so that the Jews and Gentiles could fellowship and understand that the free gift of salvation was given to us just as much as them. I love the epistles……

Let us rise up and press into a place of prayer and intercession that we might fellowship with the King of kings and the Lord of lords. We are to draw nigh unto God to grow in relationship, worship, praise, and power.

Be encouraged


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Intercepting The Plans of the Enemy

The power of your prayers and intercession is vital to the intercepting of the attacks of the enemy over both yours and the lives around you. It is a time to step up to your God-given post and learn how to pray. The disciples wasn’t afraid to ask Jesus to teach them how to pray. Prayer was one of the things Jesus did here on earth as he walked in ministry up til his crucifixion.

Jesus knew the importance of keeping in close communion with the Father who held all things, decisions, and life in his hands. He daily demonstrated through looking up to heaven and speaking to God about what was going on around Him. He knew that it was possible, he knew that God was able, he did it for our example.

Jesus spoke of us being and remaining in the vine. John 15:5 declares, “I am the vine; you are the branches. If you remain in me and I in you, you will bear much fruit; apart from me you can do nothing”. (NIV) This tells us that we are apart of something bigger and in order to grow and flourish we must remain in Him (God) in order to be able to bear fruit. What is this fruit that we are to bear….the fruits of the spirit as described in Galatians 5:22, “But the Holy Spirit produces this kind of fruit in our lives: love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness,” (NLT)

In our fallen state we are naturally selfish, self-centered and self-seeking, “Behold, I was shaped in iniquity; and in sin did my mother conceive me”. (KJV) From the Genesis of our lives due to our fallen forefathers we are born with the hearts to want to go our own way. Jesus must draw us, save us, and transform us in the water and in the spirit before we can be changed. Even then if we are not careful we will be over and over again right back in that same frame of mind, heart, and action.

We must stay in God, we must pray, intercede, supplicate, and travail to stay close to God and to war in agreement with the word of God. For the word of God is powerful and sharper than any two-edged sword….We cut the enemy with the word of God as we speak it aloud in the atmosphere over our lives, children, family, and situations. God has given us everything pertaining unto life and Godliness, so just like we have the mind and hearts to rebel, deep in us all is written the ordinances of God and we have a spirit that wants to walk in obedience, love, and power.

What are we willing to do to move forward. We have a choice and a decision to make. We are not made to do anything but God leaves us with a choice. I tell you that whether we choose life or death the devil will be there to press, afflict, and oppress us. I have chosen that to be in the vine with power to tread over that serpent, than to be apart from Him and suffer great oppression and the inability to move forward.

I am learning how to war in the spirit, calling down heavens angels to intercept in the spirit the plot, schemes, and attack of the enemy. Not that he won’t attack but clearly the bible informs, “No weapon that is formed against thee shall prosper; and every tongue that shall rise against thee in judgment thou shalt condemn. This is the heritage of the servants of the LORD, and their righteousness is of me, saith the LORD”. (Isaiah 54:17 KJV) So indeed they will form, may even be launched but it will not prosper. 

I am a firm believer that as in Job God will allow the enemy to come in and take our hedges from around us, afflicting our minds, bodies and at times our very emotions but this is to prepare us, show us something we didn’t see before, grow our faith, and teach us yes, how to pray, supplicate, and lay before God. Drawing us even the more closer to HIM!

Don’t get it wrong, we will experience hardship and the word tells, “You therefore must endure hardship, as a good soldier of Christ Jesus”. (2 Timothy 2:3 WEB) We MUST endure there is no way of getting around it, but God is there to go with us to teach us and train us in the way that we should go, with his loving eye…

Walk with, stay in, and endure whatever it is your lot is. It has not come to destroy you but to make you better…Remember that all things are working together for you good because you love the Lord and are the called according to his purpose.17819998_403129446721501_396847327_o.jpg

I love you!



Not Until God Says

I have really learned and began to understand that it’s not over until God says. We sing songs, quote to one another, but this is a proven fact in my own personal life. God is in control and it is truly all in his timing. We say “It’s all working together for the Good”, and it is. I am now in a season of my life, that when I first began you could have never told me that things would work together as it has. I had to totally rely on God for every outcome in my life.

Yes I pray, and put in the foot work, however, the outcome and glory belongs to God. I am in a place where I believe as a woman in hiding (the cocoon stage), I believe I can see the sunlight and there is a loosening of the chrysalis. Now, that doesn’t mean that my process is starting to feel better, on the contrary, it appears to be getting tighter. The process is one that would love to keep us right there in “the process”. I hear all the time, “girl it’s a process”, “God’s not through with me yet”….yadddda yadaaa….When do we understand that there are processes, and most of them don’t take the rest of your life. There is a few that we will be processed in such as sanctification or healing….some will be automatic, while others aren’t so long. It is up to me to be sensitive to the spirit of God to know when each season is up, so that I can break out and, or break forth.

Let’s not stay in a process that is only suppose to take a while and turn it into a lifestyle. We all miss God sometimes, forfeit, and even delay what we are suppose to walk into. When God makes us aware of these places, pray for direction, get back in line and do what is necessary to keep moving. We never want to remain stagnant. I have been in all three of these places and praise God for his love and mercy for helping me to move. I can personally be very hard headed, not proud of that, but now is not the time to forget the path, the call, or the purposes of God in my life.

I see more distractions on the horizon, right at the break of day, all heal tends to break loose, this is when we push, pray, and push….We don’t give up, and we don’t go back no matter what. Temptation arises, so what! Even if we fall to the temptation, GET UP, and move it, move it, move it! You are not alone, as I know that I am not! God is able, and in this we must allow God to be number one in our lives!

It’s not over until God says, I am a living witness about this wonderful group of words. God never gave up on me, even when I through in the towel with my silly self and wanted to do things my way. He was always right there to pick me up when I called on his wonderful name. Jesus has never failed me yet! So I turn it over. Still guff up, but I will never forget what he has done for me, how he has set me free, how he has brought me out….Nope, Never.


Trust in your process, give your heart to him.



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The Balance

When I speak of balance my friend I am talking about a woman who is in the process of balancing being a woman of God as well as a woman of recovery. Now I am told to put my recovery first, then in the spirit I am told to put God first. Well, well, well!!!!! So this is how I see it God comes first, I serve no other Gods but the true and living God…. when it comes to worship, however, in the natural my recovery must come first. So yes, God and my recovery comes first. These are two totally different dimensions, yes?

With my whole heart God is the only God I call Him Jesus….I worship and serve only Him….No one and nothing else is to be compared to Him…..In the morning when I wake it is He who wakes me, talks with me and walks with me….He strengthens  me to walk in my recovery! He keeps me clean. With my will and life turned over to God, He helps me to recover one day at a time just for today!!!!!
When we say that we go to any lengths to stay clean, we mean that just like we walked rain, sleet, snow, and hail to get one more, than we do just the same to get to a meeting. We reached out to whoever was available to find the best dope, and we must with the same fervor reach out to another recovering addict and call before and not after we use. We get numbers and we use them, we go to meetings, we listen, we help, we identify and don’t compare. We read, write and get a sponsor, we use our sponsor…..We stay clean. We pray, we get a God of our own understanding. Mine is Jesus!
Same as should be in the body of Christ! We live clean from sin, we pray, we strive to stay holy. We fellowship with other like minded saints. We suppose to identify and not compare. We read, we write, we listen to the man of woman of God and we grow in the things of God…..We become of service in the rooms and in church…..We pray for each other, we help, we minister Jesus, we give back what was so freely given to us…
Now in the rooms they may think I do to much for Christ as in church they may think I do to much for recovering addicts idk. All i do know is there is no God without recovery for me, and there is not recovery without God……


When I speak of being single yes I do mean never married but I believe that the married should also be married yet single in the mind and hearts to God. Yes the word says he/she who is married cares for the things of the world how he/she may please her husband. Again never married but just a thought should they still have to have a secret place of worship, a quiet time of prayer and fasting, a moment in the word. Yes, I believe so….However, lets get back to what I have experience in and my prayer is that if any married couples stumble upon this blog, that they could glean some something from it.

Single! I have been in relationships, single! I have lived with men, shacking, single! Single! Single! Single! Proposed too, told I was sent by GOD….lolol only to still remain single. I remember after every relationship I would come out alive of sitting in a quiet place alone saying to God, Well here I am again Lord just me and you….God in a loving and kind voice would say to me, ” You keep trying to put people where they should not be, in my time, not yours…” Because I didn’t trust God and He was taking too long…I would choose my flesh, my desires, and what I wanted every time only to be hurt, manipulated, and abused by the next man who almost always came with another stronger drug.

Yea, single! God had told me that it was not time. Long, long, time ago! Rebellious was I….wasn’t nothing funny at the time. I’m told that I suffer from the dis- ease of addiction, I come to find that through experience to be a fact and so what is the remedy. The remedy is not to use nothing drugs, people, places, and things, work a 12 step program, talk to my sponsor, get a support system…..go to meetings. The ultimate for me is getting a God of my understanding. Well I understand Him to be Jesus, who is my Lord and Savior.

Now on with the singleness, well talk about my life of drugs and alcohol and how God delivered me in length on another page.

For years I always felt that I need a man. From a kid your parents teach you how to desire things that I believe they didn’t mean, but it just happened. You know, barbie and Ken dolls, kitchen sets, baby dolls with bottles and the whole nine. Then the next door neighbors son come over and you try to make him the daddy to your family…..your the mom….and it all begins…….the root of the lie.

To Be Continued….