My Life Is Not My Own, Living To Worship!

As I listen to the words of  William McDowell song and allow it to get into not just my ears, but allow it to fall into my spirit as I worship the Lord. Worship is not just something I could do because I was told, but when I begin to spend more and more time with God I fell in love with the God that I worship. As he loves on me and cares for me even after all that I have been through it prompts me to worship. It was a time when I could only worship if some mellow soft worship music was playing, but when you really fall in love with the Lord you can worship him in traffic, when the world is in kaos you can find a quiet place in you and begin to worship the Lord. I go to school and I tell you that I choose a time during my class to step away to give myself to him in worship. Worship is not on a time limit or a special format. For me my whole lifestyle is worship. Holy living, doing the next right thing that pleases God and if and when I fall short I repent and worship him because I know in his faithfullness he has forgiven and is starting the process to help me in the area I struggle in. That is what I love about the Lord, that no matter what I struggle in I can turn it over to him and in his grace and mercy He will cleanse me and turn me around and deal with me in the area I need it in. No condemnation, no blame game just unconditioanl love and serenity. God’s goodness leads me to worship, His mighty acts, His awesomeness, His healing power, His creativeness, His restoration and reconciliation. He is a great God. All things are working together for my good therefore I dont have to waste time on worry and fears but on worship, praise and Loving God. Worship for us as christians is walking in love and obedience. God is a keeper and a great teacher. If we dont know how He will help us, teach us how to love. Especially when we’ve been hurt, abused and abandoned. That leads me to worship Him My God will come and heal every broken place in me, bind up all of my wounds and pour in the oil and the wine, there is a balm in gilead. Amen and amen. So I rejoice today in the fact that I can worship the true and living God. Many dont know about Him, they are worshipping different things, people, and nature. But God created them all. Why worship things when you can worship the one who made everything and everybody….  My life is not my own, I, you have been bought with a price. Submit under the mighty hand of God and in due season He will exalt you if you faint not..


Be encouraged and Live To Worship!


My Worship Is Real

In the beginning I worshipped the best way that I could, but as time as gone on in my relationship in and with God, Worship, real worship was birthed in me. I can truly say that I had not a clue how to worship God. I believe He accepted it because I did it with all of my heart. But I believe that worship is birthed out of trials and situation. Now I understand when the older saints say I have learned to worship the Lord. In my life my pain birthed in me worship, because I learned how to worship him in pain, hurt and trauma. I seen and experienced God being my Jehovah Jirah when I was hungry, homeless and without a dime. I experienced God being my Jehovah-Raphan when he healed my broken heart, and mended all of my wounds, when he dried up cancer in my womb. I experienced God Being el shaddi, elohim. In my pain and discomfort I seen God come in and comfort me, whisper in my ear that he was with me and is with me.  When I lost my children and no one was there I experienced God loving me when I was unlovable and strung out on dope. He resued me, He became my Jehovah-Nissi, my Jehovah Shaloam. I remember crying out in the midnight hour of my life and God telling me to rest in him, He told me that if I forsook all I was doing that he would take me back and clean me up.  He came into the crack house, like Hosea with Homer, I went whoring and God came and found me no matter where I was and He purchased me with His blood. I know from experience that while I was yet in my sins he died for me and saved me. He delivered me from all of my fears, torments and wickedness. I’ve been through to much not to worship him. But it was in my pain, torment and trauma that I learned and became acquainted with the God that loves me unconditionally. That’s why I do what I do, That’s why I live like I live, because of the grace and mercy of God. I take not credit because if it had not been for the Lord who was on my side I know where I would be, In the crack house, in the bedroom, on the corner, in the bottle, on dope…… Gloryy to God. I get joy when I think about what He has done for me.  I will tell the world about the man who came and saved me. Cleaned me, delivered me, healed me, washed me, turned me around and set my feet on a solid ground. That is why I worship because of who he is to me in my life.  He is my healer, deliverer, my rock, my hiding place, my refuge. I know him forreal He is my strength, my lover, friend, God, Lord, Peace, Joy.  I know my redeemer lives and he lives in me.. He saved me, sanctified me and filled me with the precious gift of the holy ghost.  It is in Him I move live and have my being.  My worship, My worship is forreal….

Why do you worshiop?

Worshipping Through The Pain

In my experience I have learned to worship God through the feelings of pain. My Bishop Anthony Dixon would minister to us to worship God instead of worrying. The bible tells us that God already knows what we have need of before we even ask. God can hear us afar off. Before we even part our lips. I have learned that worrying about something that I am powerless to change does not change anything. It only for me makes the situation worse, because somewhere in there I begin to doubt God and think that I can help him solve my problem. Today I choose to live by the word of God that tells me that all I have to do is seek the kingdom of God and all that I need will be provided for me. I don’t have to whine, cry or have a temper tantrum but only believe what the word of God tells me. In order to do that I must read, meditate and pray (speak) the word out of my mouth with faith. God is more than able. I believe that God is not as concerned with the little material finite things that we worry about. God is more concerned about a relationship with us. Worship is one of the many ways that I fellowship with God, I love to worship God. Everybody have a different way that they worship the Lord and I am not here to teach or condemn nobodys way. Only to share with you how I love to worship and how it benefits me.  I learned in my recovery family to keep the focus on myself, not judging anyone else for anything.

I love to worship the Lord in song, singing of his majesty, goodness. I love to worship with the fruit of my lips telling him how much I love and adore him. I pray in the spirit connecting to the spirit of God and He begins to show me His glory. He is delighted with the way I worship him. I am honest with him in my time with him about how I feel and he comforts me with his presence and kind loving words of encouragment. I dont spend alot of time asking in my worship time I love to just sing, and tell him I love him.

Now praise has led me into worship. I love that to. Shouting when I feel uncomfortable, telling him thankful and showing gratitude inspite of what I am going through summons the presence of the Lord almost immediately to my side to lift up all heavy burdens, and destroy any yoke that the enemy has tried to place on my neck.  I thank God for his presence because when the glory of the Lord shows up everything that is not like God has to loose me and let me go.  We need the glory of the Lord, the anointing, for it is the anointing of  God that destroys the yoke.

So in your time of pain, I would suggestion and encourage that you go into worship. Praising God in your presence and watch God move in. He may or may not change the situation the way you want him to, but I know that He will comfort, encourage and love you in and through it. Right now I am in pain, I am going to worship God, praise him for this is what I do, This is who He created me to be and who I am.  Praise is what I do! I am a child, you are a child of God and you are more than a conqueror through Christ Jesus!


So as my Bishop T says, Why worry when you can worship ❤

The Power Of Worship

I love to worship the Lord. A secret place, a quiet place for me and the Lord to commune. I worship the Lord in the beauty of holiness. I seek him, with my heart, mind, and spirit. I love him, I love on him. I whisper sweet somethings to the King of King and The Lord of Lord. I tell him how I adore Him, how I need Him. I get in that secret place and I dwell there. And as Psalm 91 says if I do that, that I shall abide up under the shadow of the almighty and he keeps me safe from harm. Oh Yes there is power in worship. For that is what God created me for. It aint deep, its not just what I do, but it is who I am. In my worship I feel the presence of the Lord, He speaks with me, comforts me and I feel safe. In worship he rejuvenates me and lifts me up. In worship He fills me and heals me In my worship I learn who He is, what He is and How he is, and I found Him to be gentle, loving, gracious and mine. Yes mine, my love, my hope, my peace and my friend…..

You may thought I was going to get all deep and profound, no there is a side of worship that is gentle and simple. Simply tell him in your worship time you love him, you need him, that you adore him. He will be that and more. if your would only

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The Power of Worship